Too much information post......

I had another baby appointment today! I am due this Saturday! Crazy. So great news I am 2 1/2 cm dialated 90 % effaced and my cervix is now "anterior" with Bryant at a station 0. Joy. Having my cervix checked wasn't like having a rod shoved up my butt this time (because it's anterior now) which I was grateful for. haha. (I warned you all this was a "too much information post"). Anyway, the best news of all is that I am being induced on Monday (if Labor & Delivery has enough room) because my Bishop's score was high enough. SWEET. It was interesting to watch Travis's face turn white when he realized he will have a kid on monday/tuesday. Pretty entertaining. It's the same terrified look he had on his face the day we got married. I don't think these things become real for guys until it is right about to happen. Whereas girls (or me at least) freak out for months ahead and then are pretty calm the day of.

Well I am excited & nervous all at the same time. I am actually more anxious about Travis finding a job he loves & is excited for then having a baby, but I am choosing not to freak out anymore and leaving it up to Heavenly Father that everything will work out the way it should. I don't think I have ever prayed so hard for something in my entire life!!

Anyway, Thanks for all of the wonderful encouraging comments. I'm not good at responding to most of them, but I love reading what everyone has to say! It really makes my day brighter.

I will post again if something happens this weekend!!

Crazy....

I'm still huge, fat, pregnant and swollen (my shoes no longer fit). Stretch marks are appearing in very odd places (I hate taking showers now). Please let this end soon.....

Ps. I had my membranes "stripped' on thursday. That was a pleasant experience. haha. It obviously didn't do much :) Dang it. I want to be able to go on runs and get my endorphins going again. Crazy Becca has taken over.

The End.

The Ice Queen...

So, any who know me well know that I enjoy a cool apartment. I spare no expenses in the summer on running the air conditioning, and in the winter, I keep the heater pretty low. Being cold has never really been a problem for me in the past as my roommates have never preferred a cooler living space than I have... "never really been a problem" that is, until now.

Becca is ridiculous. While during the past year of our marriage we have been on pretty equal temperature preferences, pregnancy has warped her internal temperature gauge. I'm not even kidding here... if I'm in the same room as her, she complains that my body heat is warming the room too much. At night, she turns off the heater all together. I typically wake at around 3 or 4 in the morning for fear of frostbite to any exposed skin. I then spend the rest of the night curled in fetal position praying that I make it through the night to daylight.

This morning, while she slept peacefully in her ice cave, I came out to the desk to work on the computer. After scraping the frost from my computer screen I spent the next few minutes warming my body back up and regaining the feeling in my extremities. Huddled in my blanket, trying to eliminate the drafts of frigid air creeping in from all directions, I contemplated going after my sleeping bag, but wasn't sure I could brave the excursion to the office closet.

I'm glad that the pregnancy is coming to an end soon, as the house will need to be warmer for baby Bryant. Now I may head outside to warm up...

Cat fight...

So my sister Nat bought this beautiful silk dress (on sale no less) in a size 0 yesterday. Oh how I miss those days. Sometimes it sucks to be a twin. :) I kinda had the urge to pin her down and shove cookies and ice cream in her mouth. Crazy? Yes.

Phat Photos......

Whale girl

This is a little painful to put these up for the world to see, but here are some pregnant pics of me for those of you who have been pestering :) 37 weeks and 5 days! Boo ya

This is my "turn to the front slightly so my belly doesn't look as big" picture. :)


Ugh fat becca

Baby update....

I had my 37 week appointment today! All is well and Bryant is kicking like crazy still. The doc says that he probably weighs about 6.5 lbs now. cool!!!! Travis says it's too much information to write how far I'm dilated and "effaced" and Bryant's "station" haha. So I guess I will spare you all and leave it at that. Bryant could come any day now or in the next 4 weeks. I'm hoping for Saturday? yeah that sounds good. I will post a picture of my big belly on my next post!!!!


Ps. I think I am going to cut my hair like this soon.........cute? I have a fascination with "fringe bangs" lately

Happiness....

Sorry random emotional thoughts in the early morning...............

So I have been thinking about how I can be more positive in my life. It has been somewhat of a stressful time with the economy the way it is, Travis looking for a new job, and a new baby on the way. I often wonder if I will be a good mom who is patient and loving. I worry that I won't have a lot talents or knowledge to offer to my kids. I actually cried the other day because I had a brain fart and couldn't remember "twinkle twinkle little star" and was convinced that would make me a bad mom. Who can't sing that song to their child? Yeah I'm a little hormonal right now. I pray that I will learn to not be so controlling and perfectionistic :)

I have always liked nice things..nice clothes, nice houses, nice furniture, but I have these perfect moments when I'm in my little apartment with none of those things with Travis and I realize it's about finding happiness in the little things. I had this overwhelming feeling last night/this morning that I have been blessed with an amazing, patient, kind husband who loves me and treats me better than I deserve. I have an awesome marriage that is full of trust and love. I have a new beautiful baby on the way. I have family and friends who love me.

I need to count my blessings and not be overwhelmed with worry and doubt about what the future holds. I need to be content about where I'm at in life right now and enjoy every minute of it.

I need to choose to have faith.....

Anyway, I can't express my feelings into words eloquently (not one of my gifts in life. ask Travis ha), but it helps to have a splattering of thoughts written down so I can look back on them from time to time. :)

Porn for new moms......

haha. No it's not what you think. My beautiful friend Trisha gave me a hilarious book for my baby shower entitled "Porn for new moms." It pretty much has pictures of "cute new dads" holding new babies, saying perfect things that every girl or new mom wants to hear....

for example....

some of my favorites include...

"Damn you look hot in those sweatpants!"

"Don't worry, honey. Your mother and I will take wonderful care of the baby while you and your girlfriends are at the spa."

"Let's not have sex tonight. Let me just rub your feet while you tell me about the baby's day."

"Ok, you can hold him for a minute, but I want him right back."

"I found someone to take my tee time again this weekend so I can spend more time with you and the baby."

"You say your breasts have gotten smaller since the birth? I hadn't noticed. They look amazing."

"No, No! sit down! I'll do the dishes. After nine and a half months of pregnancy, 26 hours of labor, and 18 stitches, you don't have to do a damn things around here!"

These just don't do it justice without seeing the cheesy pictures that go along with them, but still funny. :)

The Bachelor....

Guess what starts tomorrow!!! The Bachelor. Yes I have an alarm set in my phone so I don't forget. If you saw the bachelorette last season when Jason (cutest dad ever) got his heart ripped out, you will definitely be watching as he searches for a new LOVE. Yes I'm a sucker for reality tv shows. oh contentment. :)

Bryant's Nursery....

WARNING LOTS OF PICS!!!

Travis and I finally got Bryant's room pretty much finished. It is VERY bright so I hope everyone likes it. haha (nervous laughter) I am proud to say that there is not one touch of "baby blue" in it. wahoooo!!!!! Not that there is anything wrong with baby blue. Just not my thing. :) It looks so simple but it took HOURS to do the curtains, dresser, mirror, spray the lanterns, letters, and paint circles. Thank you to everyone who helped us beautify it!!!! Now I just need this baby out of me so I can get skinny again :) It's going to be funny if Travis gets a job in SLC or ogden and we have to take it all down and start over again if we move. good times.

Anyway here it is.....................................................lie to me and tell me you love it even if you hate it. Feel the love.

If you haven't noticed I like paper lanterns....a lot. Oh and I got a little obsessed with circles. Obviously hehe

Oops this pic wasn't supposed to be on here. But I guess it gives you the dark 3am look which I'm sure I will get to see a lot of soon.

Mirror/dresser/changing table. fun fun. That mirror is hung with about 8 different things so it is NOT MOVING for those worried people out there. Our landlord is going to love all the giant holes in the wall when we leave. ha.

My baby shower invitation, cute lamp, baseball we painted at "color me mine," and adorable green homemade shoes from my oh so talented and beautiful cousin Kelly. (thank you!!!)

Yep another picture. I don't know why I have so many of the dresser on here. ha. Cute green changing pad cover though don't you think?

Cute Cute Mom holding Bryant's "take home outfit booties" so fun and small!!

Crib set!! This is where my love affair with circles started.

Cute green glider with my homemade curtains. I LOVE how soft & green & cute this glider is. Thank you Travis for spending your grad money on me. I love you!!!

I'm proud of the curtain "loops" what can I say? ha. My first sewing project with MY sewing machine. Exciting & frustrating all at the same time!

Another pic of the glider because I love it so much!!

The pack n' play all ready to go in our bedroom so Bryant can sleep close to us the first little while. Thank you Chris and Deb for this!!! You two are amazing and I love you!!

Finally, Bryant's "take home outfit." I'm so excited to hold, stare at, kiss, hug, rock my little guy!! Thanks Nat!!!

The End

I forgot to post pics of my baby shower so if I can get pics from my mom I will post them soon! Thank you to everyone for all of the wonderful thoughtful gifts! I love you all!