Thank you!!

Hi friends. I just wanted to say thank you for all of your encouraging comments, advice and phone calls. I have such amazing friends & family! Thank you Thank you Thank you. It has meant so much to me.

We are doing better around here. I'm still stressed out about getting Bryant into some serious-hard-to-get-into-programs and I'm always worried that I'm not doing enough for him (especially since there is an ever-growing list of things to work on) but hopefully everything will work out the way it should (even if it isn't necessarily the way I want it to). I'm working on being content with what I am capable of doing & letting the rest go.

I keep telling myself that it will all be alright no matter what. It's my new positive thinking effort. ha. :)

My son is so amazingly sweet & loving. I love him so much, and I am so grateful to have him in my life. He is seriously the bomb.com (throw back to junior high right now). What a lucky girl I am to have such a wonderful son & supportive husband in my life. I am very very blessed.

Anyway, Thanks again everyone!!

Ps. I need to redo the colors on my blog. I'm waiting to get hit with inspiration. It will come :)

Autism....

So I'm not sure how to begin. Travis & I have noticed some odd behavior with Bryant (his lack of social skills, anxiety, repetitive obsession with cars, etc.) and decided we should take him to a child psychologist to see what she had to say. The initial assessment is that Bryant has Aspergers with sensory processing disorder. What a whirlwind it has been around here. I have felt so alone, sad, stressed, and worried about Bryant's future to the point of getting no sleep and crying on my closet floor for several days (pretty pathetic I know). It's pretty devastating. I have researched for hours and hours just trying to figure out the best way to go about treating him and giving him the best chance of having a successful happy life.

It costs $1500 to go through the process of getting an official diagnosis for autism, and therapies range from $150-$3,000 a WEEK depending on how much therapy Bryant will need. Isn't that astounding? What is more crazy is that our insurance won't cover any of it. I feel like I'm so scared of what to do and how to pay for this if he needs a lot of therapy. I mean how does anyone begin to pay for this? She said a lot of people skip the official diagnosis and move right on to treatment, because treatment is the same either way, but I have no idea what to do. We are doing Early intervention through the State, but they only meet with him once or twice a month, which doesn't seem like nearly enough time.

I love my little boy so much, and am so afraid that people won't treat him like he is "normal" the second they learn about this. I want him to have friends! I want him to grow up and be able to get married, have kids, and a job. Hopefully with therapy and early intervention it will all be a reality.

Anyway, I have been torn on whether or not to post this, but figured it was probably time for friends to find out about what is going on. Hopefully the next time I post I will have everything figured out and be very optimistic about the future :)