Perfect Storm..........

I think yesterday was the perfect storm for disaster. Want to know why?

1. Travis leaves early for a reception.

2. I am REALLY bad with direction.

3. I ran around like a crazy person all day.

4. I'm really excited about wearing a new really ridiculously expensive dress I bought with my birthday money (so therefore things are bound to go wrong).

5. Did I mention I'm really bad at direction?

6. Travis's cell phone dies before I can make it to the reception.

7. I forgot the address of the reception at home. That might have been important?

The Perfect Storm:

Drove around for an hour last night looking for said reception. Didn't find it. Eventually drove home and may or may not have cried in my closet out of frustration & pure hatred for my sucky sense of direction. (I really don't cry as much as you may think.:)

BUT THEN:

Travis got home. We decided to pick up some yummy frozen yogurt and rent twilight (so we could mock it profusely. let out that anger. yeah!) to calm my frazzled soul.

Turned out to be a fun night. Even if I couldn't wear my new dress & red lipstick :)

Becca's list............

So I have decided to make a list of random things about me because I'm bored and I need to get my mind off this never ending day............................enjoy :)

I'm a sucker for love stories. I think I have probably seen every movie out there with a love story in it. It makes me treat Travis better because I get all happy & content. :)

I hate grocery shopping. I hate the lines, annoying people, spending money on food & florescent lighting (makes EVERYONE look bad).

I have a MAJOR desire to travel through Europe. This would have been more fun (to the 13 yr old girl who still lives inside me) when I was single because I WOULD have undoubtedly found a hot young European man and had a fling (such as in "what a girl wants"). haha. But I would definitely love going to Venice with Travis. :)

I have an obsession with photography even though I'm not a photographer (yet). I love looking at creative ways to capture people's emotion. I look at photography blogs every day.

I was the ugly duckling all growing up. I only got cute around my senior year of high school. Seriously. It was weird/awesome to get to BYU and have people think I was attractive.

I have an overwhelming phobia of public speaking. The thought of it makes me nauseous. Maybe that's why I connect with Anne Hathaway in Princess Diaries so much?

I read the beautiful letters Travis wrote me when we were dating when I get sad or pensive. They make me remember how much I love him in the times when I just want to pick a fight. :)

I love the smell of books and coffee. So sometimes I go to Barnes & Noble or Borders and just walk around and look at books. It's so relaxing!

I don't like when people try to be sooooo "trendy" or "different" because I feel like they just end up looking silly.

I LOVE getting into books so much that I read until morning. Books are food for my soul. Seriously.

I will ALWAYS have high expectations for Travis to be romantic on special occasions. I don't view this as a bad thing. I would rather be up front about expecting something then be frustrated towards him later that he didn't make any effort.

So there was this one time when I didn't eat sugar, soda, or even butter on my toast for 2 years. I look back and wonder why I did that. I didn't become any more skinny. I didn't get better skin. I still craved those things every. single. day. Everything in moderation is the best I think.

I kind of have an obsession of looking at someone in a movie and then listing off every other movie they have been in. It seriously bothers me until I have thought of all the movies I can remember. Does that sound a little OCDish? MMMMMMMMmmmmmm.

I still love ovaltine. In fact I'm drinking some right now.

I still think Nursing school was harder than being a mom.

I'm obsessed with reality tv shows. I can't help myself. The Bachelorette and SYTYCD are my favs. In fact I told Travis we should take a latin ballroom or contemporary dance class together. He didn't go for it.

I love spagettios and mac & cheese far too much for a 24 yr old.

I want to feel cool, beautiful, smart, witty, sexy, kind, gracious, AWESOME again. It seems like those things just slip away when you get older and tired. I want to find a way to feel that way FOREVER.

Well Bryant is crying so that is my list for now.........................................................


Sorry about my grammar/spelling. I'm too tired to go back and read everything over!

Ps. I saw the Proposal last night. So funny. Go see it if you haven't yet. Definitely worth paying the money for.

Mondays suck........

(Birthday lunch at Spark Lounge)

After a long weekend of celebrating my birthday with presents, money, lagoon, yummy food, potting flowers AND spending time with family for FATHER'S DAY.................Monday is looking a little bleak this morning.

Good thing I have a girl night for Thursday planned. If anyone wants to join me for a night out on the town in SLC with my hilarious and oh so fun sister-in-laws, NAT, and MOM. Give me a holler. Dinner and a movie, but who knows what the night may hold? PARTY.

Loved....

I am feeling very grateful for everyone who took the time to post a comment on my blog about Bryant!

I have:

Bought a fan (stupid dogs, cars, loud neighbors. I'm a hater.)

Started doing a better bedtime routine (bath, pj's, books, bottle, bed)

Let Bryant scream it out at bedtime (so sad. But have gone in to check on and comfort him every 15 min. Hopefully he will decrease the amount of time he screams. It brings me to tears. I hate it!)

Bryant has slept through the night 3 nights. Hopefully it sticks!!

Anyway, Thanks everyone! Your comments have been a life savor!!!


In other news:

Travis has had to work graveyard this week because of trainings in Europe that he is doing. Craperific.

I have found I do REALLY weird things in my sleep when he is gone. Maybe because I get anxious?

FOR EXAMPLE:

I woke up last night on my hands and knees in bed shining my cell phone light at the bed. I looked around and my bedroom light, kitchen light, hallway light, and front room lamp were on. I had pretty much turned on every light in the house. ummmmm creepy.

You're killing me smalls.............

So anyone have any advice on how to get a 4 month old to sleep through the night?

He used to sleep 12 hrs no problem, but he just started waking up and wanting to play every night (starting on mother's day of course. haha.) Now we put him down around 7:30-8 & he wakes up at 11, 3, and 5. I try and give him rice cereal twice a day but I feel like it has made NO difference. We even put a little cereal in his bottle at night to try and get him to last longer. I give him about 3 different 1 hr naps throughout the day but sometimes he sleeps even less than that.

I'm so tiredy.

Yep definitely had an emotional breakdown last night when I heard Bryant slamming his feet down on his bed after I had just fed him and gone in his room twice to get him to go back to sleep.

I love Bryant. But man oh man. I want him to sleep better.

New hair...........

So do you ever take a picture of yourself and think.............Do I REALLY look like that?

DANG IT.

I would rather live in a beautiful land known as denial.

I'm having one of THOSE days. ahhhhweeellllll.

Anyway, shorter hair with bangs. taaa daaaa. (with weird smile and creepy eyes)

Serious look.

Control FREAK............

*Warning this is a RAMBLING POST*

In Honor of Bryant here are some "angry pics"

Angry stare........

haha. No words.

My favorite.......the lip pout.

So sad. Yet so funny.

So if there is ONE thing that having a baby has taught me

it is that

I CAN'T control EVERYTHING.

I'm a planner by heart. I have a plan for what I'm going to wear, how I wear my makeup, exactly how events are going to look like and run, when Bryant should eat, sleep, poo, etc ( I know poor kid right?) I like things done right, which of course is MY WAY. HA.

This last weekend we decided to bless Bryant with his new cousin Melyn.

Bryant SCREAMED the ENTIRE BLESSING.

EVEN after I tried to give him an extra nap, force more food on him, and bring his favorite toy along just in case anything bad went down.

AND then AFTER the blessing he decided to spit up massive amounts of the bottle I had just given him, SOAKING his cute little blessing outfit with vomit, and screaming bloody murder in the hallway for 20 minutes.

Thus no pics of the blessing were taken.

It was one of those moments where I realized no matter how hard I try to make everything picture perfect and MY WAY, I can't, and instead of getting frustrated it is better to laugh about it. Along with the ENTIRE CONGREGATION AFTER THE BLESSING.

So thought for the day. Try to be less controlling and go with the flow. It makes for less craziness.


The END.

Ps. I REALLY like the orange and white ensemble he has on. Thus why he is wearing it in pretty much EVERY pic I have ever taken of him in the last 3 weeks. sweet. So don't judge you haters out there.

Chopped.......

I cut my hair off last night. Don't be surprised if you see me & I look really really ridiculously good looking.


Or............

REALLY UGLY (I can't remember how to style short hair?)

I'm going with the first option.